I did it! I finally got a good cry out! It was because of the beautiful music of the Bells at Temple Square concert last night. They were PHENOMINAL!! We laughed. We were entertained. Then.... they played "You Raise Me Up" and... I cried. As a steady stream of tears flowed down my face, I felt Heaven's love wrap her arms tightly around me, as if to say, "We know you are here. We are aware of your pain. We love you." It was incredibly healing.
After a really great conversation with my friend who invited me, and as I sit here listening to my eldest play the piano, I have realized something very profound to my life. The tears I need to shed in order to keep my emotions balanced will often come through music. That is my language I communicate with to the heavens.
I was burnt out because for a long time everything in my life was music. Everything... church obligations, personal activities, work.... so I took a big step back. It consumed my life to an unhealthy degree. Then, I became a bit confused as to who I was, because I had let go of all the music. I am nothing without music. It is my heart and soul. I just need to find the balance of it in my life. I need to allow it to bring me comfort and peace.... and I need to allow myself to cry tears of sweet release.
Beautifully releasing-
Mama Dragon
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