Confession: I am a 38 year old female who has suffered multiple miscarriages, given birth to four children, had a heart nearly quit, had surgery to repair it, weigh too much, am addicted to sugar, and am facing an uncertain future if I do not make some changes to my health.
I do not need to decide what I am living for- that is easy. I am living to do God's work on earth before I return home to heaven, to raise and nurture children that are making the world a better place. If I do not take care of the body I have, how will I be able to take care of my family, continue to make my house a home, serve a neighbor, enjoy the beauty in this life? If I fail to take care of myself, then I will end up in an early grave, leaving my children motherless, my husband without a companion.
Can one ignore the care of their body and still care for the well-being of their spirit? I do not believe so. Spiritual, physical, and emotional health all go hand in hand. When we let one area go, the others quickly follow. The bodies we were given are the only ones we have, so handle them with care.
These past four months have been some of the most stressful and difficult in my life. Very few know the depths of darkness that I have encountered. When the first crisis happened, my emotional state became very fragile. I grieved deeply, then suddenly stopped, not allowing myself to feel as I truly needed to. After that, little by little, my emotional state declined. Along with that, I did not cherish myself enough to take care of my body. I have eaten lousy, gained weight, been sluggish... all as I have battled to deal with life's struggles and get myself to a better place. Then, after many hugely stressful challenges in a very short amount of time, and just when I thought I was doing alright, everything caught up to me and my spiritual state of mind went into a state of unrest and I began struggling there as well. I did not want to return to church, I did not want to study my scriptures, I did not want to be around people who would uplift me. I have been a hot mess in nearly every aspect of my life these past several weeks, and I admit it. A major physical set back two weeks ago has been a massive wake-up call for me and I have been humbled to repent. I have not taken care of my spirit, body, or mind, and by not caring for myself, I have shown God I do not value the gift He has given me: Life!
I need to change and right now is the time. I am immersing myself into daily scripture study, I am letting go of people in my life who do not lift me up but who consistently bring me down. I am releasing negative energy and only welcoming light and truth into my life. In addition to these choices, today I began a sugar detox. All of these things combined will allow me to detox my life from that which is negative and fill it with good. I look forward to sharing the journey with you.
I love myself enough to make the improvements I need. For I am queen of my castle and will reign the way God intended me to- with beauty and grace.
Mama Dragon
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